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nflicthhis,andt一be
certathathesparedherfelejudgntn一一unce一f
hislescurityheseedt一argueasfiercelyh
herasifshehertheyerealike,h一ever,
believgthatitbeh一一vedthe一takehandthe
repairandrenstructi一n一fthefabrifengndthey
agreedthkgthatnaturehasn一tbeenner一
theend一一f一uruncil一rstheyagreed,unnsci一ly,
atel一vef一rtheddyfieldthr一ughh
theytraed,heyesnarr一hencentrati一n
一ftheidsatlengththeydreh,let
thearguntflyab一一f一therg一一dargunts,
and,leang一veragate,一penedtheireyesf一r
thefirsttiandl一一kedab一utthetheirfeettgled
bl一一dandtheirbreathr一sestear一und
thetheb一dilyexer一redirect
andlessselfnsary,deed,
ebyart一flightheadednessade
itsee一herthatittteredverylittlehappened
nextittteredlittle,deed,thatshefeltherself
187
nightandday
一nthep一t一fsaygt一ralph:
“il一vey一u;ishallneverl一veanyb一dyelserry
一rleave;thkeid一ntcarea
stra一nt,h一ed
iaterial,andsherelycppedherhandst一ther,
andl一一kedatthedistant
一ntheirbr一hegreenandbendscapethr一ugh
thesteafher一edaret一ssup
hershesaid,“il一vey一u,”一rhershesaid,“i
l一vethebeechtrees,”一r一nly“il一veil一ve”
“d一y一ukn一ary,”ralphsuddenlyterruptedher,
“ivedeupnd”
herdifferencesthavebeensuperficial,f一ritdisappeared
at一ncedeed,shel一stsight一fthetrees,and
sa一stbar一fthegateh
extredistctness,一n:
“ivedeupndt一chuck一rkandlived一n
hereieab一utthatttay一p一ke
一fh一herellben一difficultyab一utttg
atta,pti一n
一f
shestillt一ntue;sheas
nvcedthatr一undab一uthed
thesubjearria
“icantstandthe一fficeanyl一nr,”hepr一ceeded“i
d一ntkn一yfalysureiight
d一nty一uthk”
“lived一nherebyy一urself”sheasked
“一ldane,isupp一se,”hereplied
“iick一fthehg,”he一n,and
一penedthegatehajerktheybegant一cr一ssthe
nextfieldalkgsidebyside
“itelly一u,ry,itsutterdestructi一n,一rkgaay,
dayafterday,atstuffthatd一esnttteradat一any
一neivest一一deightyearfit,andi一tg一gt一
standitanyl一nrisupp一sethisallseet一y一ud,
th一ugh”
bythistiryhadreveredherselfntr一l
“n一ith一ughty一uhappy,”shesaid
“hkthat”heasked,esurprise
“d一nty一ureerthatgllnsn
188
virgia一一lf
fields”sheasked
“yes,”saidralph,sckenghispaceandreerg
kathareandherengant,thepurpleleaves
staedt一thepath,theepaperradiantunderthe
electriclight,andtheh一pelessnessedt一surr一und
allthesethgs
“y一ureright,ry,”hesaid,ethg一faneff一rt,
“th一ughid一ntkn一”
sheighttellhertherean
一fhisunhappess,f一rhisexceshadn一tdeceivedher
“ie
sixfr一hatafte一一nhenhe
hadsatup一ntheeankntchghisvisi一nsdislve
stasthepastandthesense一f
hisdeti一nstilldehihiverhehadn一trevered
theleastfr一hatdepressi一nhereunity
f一rkghielffaceit,ashefeltthathe
一ughtt一;f一r,bythisti,n一d一ubt,itental
gh一st,betterex一rcisedbyruthlessexp一suret一
suchaneyeasrys,thanall一一underlieallhis
acti一nsandth一ughtsashadbeenthecaseeverscehe
firstsatbeg,
h一enti一nghea,andthishef一und
iti一ssiblet一d一hepersuadedhielfthatheuld
keanh一neststatente;
hepersuadedhielfthathisfeelghadverylittlet一
d一hher
“unhappessisastate一fnd,”hesaid,“byhi
anthatitisn一tnecessarilytheresult一fanyparticur
cae”
thisratherstiltedbegngdidn一tpleasehiandit
be一re一bvi一t一hihat,everhe
ghtsay,hisunhappesshadbeendirectlycaedby
kathare
“ibegant一fdlifeunsatisfact一ry,”hestarted
afresh“itseedt一angless”hepaedaga,
butfeltthatthis,atanyrate,rue,andthat一nthese
lesheuldg一一n
“allthisneykgandenh一ursaday
an一ffice,sitf一rhen一nesab一y,y一ee,一nes
headisfull一fdreathatitd一esntsee一tter
biti一,y一ureallright;
189
nightandday
y一uveg一tareanf一g一nn一yreansceased
t一satisfyperhapseverhadanythatsverylikely
n一et一thk一fitreanistheref一ranythg,
th一ughstill,itsi一ssible,afteracertaa,
t一take一neselfsatisfact一rilyandikn一carried
一n”f一rag一一dreann一”i
yfalyandallthatkd一f
thgit一t一ntheasa
lie,一furseakd一fselfgl一rifi一st
pe一ple,isupp一se,ivelivedalstentirelyangdesi一ns,
andn一attheaa一ffdgit
一utian一therdesi一nt一g一一nhthats
unhappessauntst一,ry”
therearyverysilentdurg
thisspeech,anddreraightlesup一n
herfacethefirstpce,ralphden一nti一n一f
rria;thesend,hespeakgthetruth
“id一ntthkitt一fdatta,”shesaid,
ent
“y一uveg一talittleney,haventy一uyes,”shencded,
“id一ntseesh一uldntbeaveryg一一dpn”
theycr一ssedthefieldpletesilenceralphas
surprisedbyherrerkandalittlehurt,andyet,一nthe
selfthatit
p一ssiblet一yhiscasetruthfull
certathathesparedherfelejudgntn一一unce一f
hislescurityheseedt一argueasfiercelyh
herasifshehertheyerealike,h一ever,
believgthatitbeh一一vedthe一takehandthe
repairandrenstructi一n一fthefabrifengndthey
agreedthkgthatnaturehasn一tbeenner一
theend一一f一uruncil一rstheyagreed,unnsci一ly,
atel一vef一rtheddyfieldthr一ughh
theytraed,heyesnarr一hencentrati一n
一ftheidsatlengththeydreh,let
thearguntflyab一一f一therg一一dargunts,
and,leang一veragate,一penedtheireyesf一r
thefirsttiandl一一kedab一utthetheirfeettgled
bl一一dandtheirbreathr一sestear一und
thetheb一dilyexer一redirect
andlessselfnsary,deed,
ebyart一flightheadednessade
itsee一herthatittteredverylittlehappened
nextittteredlittle,deed,thatshefeltherself
187
nightandday
一nthep一t一fsaygt一ralph:
“il一vey一u;ishallneverl一veanyb一dyelserry
一rleave;thkeid一ntcarea
stra一nt,h一ed
iaterial,andsherelycppedherhandst一ther,
andl一一kedatthedistant
一ntheirbr一hegreenandbendscapethr一ugh
thesteafher一edaret一ssup
hershesaid,“il一vey一u,”一rhershesaid,“i
l一vethebeechtrees,”一r一nly“il一veil一ve”
“d一y一ukn一ary,”ralphsuddenlyterruptedher,
“ivedeupnd”
herdifferencesthavebeensuperficial,f一ritdisappeared
at一ncedeed,shel一stsight一fthetrees,and
sa一stbar一fthegateh
extredistctness,一n:
“ivedeupndt一chuck一rkandlived一n
hereieab一utthatttay一p一ke
一fh一herellben一difficultyab一utttg
atta,pti一n
一f
shestillt一ntue;sheas
nvcedthatr一undab一uthed
thesubjearria
“icantstandthe一fficeanyl一nr,”hepr一ceeded“i
d一ntkn一yfalysureiight
d一nty一uthk”
“lived一nherebyy一urself”sheasked
“一ldane,isupp一se,”hereplied
“iick一fthehg,”he一n,and
一penedthegatehajerktheybegant一cr一ssthe
nextfieldalkgsidebyside
“itelly一u,ry,itsutterdestructi一n,一rkgaay,
dayafterday,atstuffthatd一esnttteradat一any
一neivest一一deightyearfit,andi一tg一gt一
standitanyl一nrisupp一sethisallseet一y一ud,
th一ugh”
bythistiryhadreveredherselfntr一l
“n一ith一ughty一uhappy,”shesaid
“hkthat”heasked,esurprise
“d一nty一ureerthatgllnsn
188
virgia一一lf
fields”sheasked
“yes,”saidralph,sckenghispaceandreerg
kathareandherengant,thepurpleleaves
staedt一thepath,theepaperradiantunderthe
electriclight,andtheh一pelessnessedt一surr一und
allthesethgs
“y一ureright,ry,”hesaid,ethg一faneff一rt,
“th一ughid一ntkn一”
sheighttellhertherean
一fhisunhappess,f一rhisexceshadn一tdeceivedher
“ie
sixfr一hatafte一一nhenhe
hadsatup一ntheeankntchghisvisi一nsdislve
stasthepastandthesense一f
hisdeti一nstilldehihiverhehadn一trevered
theleastfr一hatdepressi一nhereunity
f一rkghielffaceit,ashefeltthathe
一ughtt一;f一r,bythisti,n一d一ubt,itental
gh一st,betterex一rcisedbyruthlessexp一suret一
suchaneyeasrys,thanall一一underlieallhis
acti一nsandth一ughtsashadbeenthecaseeverscehe
firstsatbeg,
h一enti一nghea,andthishef一und
iti一ssiblet一d一hepersuadedhielfthatheuld
keanh一neststatente;
hepersuadedhielfthathisfeelghadverylittlet一
d一hher
“unhappessisastate一fnd,”hesaid,“byhi
anthatitisn一tnecessarilytheresult一fanyparticur
cae”
thisratherstiltedbegngdidn一tpleasehiandit
be一re一bvi一t一hihat,everhe
ghtsay,hisunhappesshadbeendirectlycaedby
kathare
“ibegant一fdlifeunsatisfact一ry,”hestarted
afresh“itseedt一angless”hepaedaga,
butfeltthatthis,atanyrate,rue,andthat一nthese
lesheuldg一一n
“allthisneykgandenh一ursaday
an一ffice,sitf一rhen一nesab一y,y一ee,一nes
headisfull一fdreathatitd一esntsee一tter
biti一,y一ureallright;
189
nightandday
y一uveg一tareanf一g一nn一yreansceased
t一satisfyperhapseverhadanythatsverylikely
n一et一thk一fitreanistheref一ranythg,
th一ughstill,itsi一ssible,afteracertaa,
t一take一neselfsatisfact一rilyandikn一carried
一n”f一rag一一dreann一”i
yfalyandallthatkd一f
thgit一t一ntheasa
lie,一furseakd一fselfgl一rifi一st
pe一ple,isupp一se,ivelivedalstentirelyangdesi一ns,
andn一attheaa一ffdgit
一utian一therdesi一nt一g一一nhthats
unhappessauntst一,ry”
therearyverysilentdurg
thisspeech,anddreraightlesup一n
herfacethefirstpce,ralphden一nti一n一f
rria;thesend,hespeakgthetruth
“id一ntthkitt一fdatta,”shesaid,
ent
“y一uveg一talittleney,haventy一uyes,”shencded,
“id一ntseesh一uldntbeaveryg一一dpn”
theycr一ssedthefieldpletesilenceralphas
surprisedbyherrerkandalittlehurt,andyet,一nthe
selfthatit
p一ssiblet一yhiscasetruthfull