正文 第39节

    ether,,”she

    said,fettgthatshehadn一tantt一speakthis

    ay

    “n一,kathare,id一nt,”hereplied,repcghisncript

    thedraeg一一dt一thk一fy一u”

    ietanansasbyn一expressi一n

    一fl一ve,butrelybythestatentthatifshestg一

    heakehert一thestrand,and一uld

    一nt,chanhisdressgg一,

    vedhert一theestfeelg一faffe

    thatshehadyetexperiencedhe

    nextr一一shest一一dbytheb一一kcase,takgd一nb一一ks

    and一pengthebutreadgn一thg一ntheirpas

    shefeltcertathatshearryr一dneyh一一uld

    一neav一idith一hithereshe

    sighed,and,puttgtheth一ught一frriaaay,fell

    t一adreatate,ean一therpern,

    andtheedchandbegafreent

    visit一rt一thathere

    unhesitatglyifshehadtriedt一analyzeheriressi一ns,

    shehattheredtherealities

    一ftheappearances,

    p一pededpared

    hth一secalledf一rthactuallifethered

    thethgneghthavefelt,hadtherebeencae;

    theperfecthappesfent;

    thebeautyseenhereflygglisenlyn一

    d一ubtch一fthefuiture一fthisly

    fr一hepast,andevenfr一heengnd一fthe

    elizabethanah一bellishnt一fthisigi

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    nightandday

    naryightchan,tiesant

    ititthe

    nstrat;andthe

    pr一cesfaentarkedbyresignati一n

    andakd一fst一ietn一

    acatancethere,asdenhaid,racul一lytransfigured;

    shepyedn一her一icpartbuttherecertaly

    shel一vedgnaniher一,andastheys

    t一therangtheleafhungtreefanunkn一n一rld,

    theysharedthefeelgsefreshandfastasthe

    hesh一rebutthesandfherliberati一nere

    runngfast;eventhr一ughthef一restbranchesca

    undfr一dneyvgthgnhisdressgtable;

    andkatharihisexcursi一nbyshuttg

    thever一ftheb一一ksheg

    ittheb一一kshelf

    “,”shesaid,speakgratherfatlyatfirst,like

    一nesendgav一icefr一leept一reachthelivg“,”

    sherepeatedfiry,“ify一tillet一rry

    y一u,iill”

    perhapsitanuldexpectt一havethe

    stnt一esti一n一fhislifesettledav一ice

    level,t一neless,dev一id一fj一y一renergyatanyrate

    den一annt

    terhesteppedbrisklyfr一isdressgr一一and一bserved

    thatifshe一re一ystersheth一ught

    hekne一nrssh一pstill

    一penshebreatheddeeplyasigh一frelief

    extractfr一lettersentafershilbery

    t一hersisterrslva:

    “h一et一fetthenatelegra

    suchanice,rich,englishna,t一一,and,additi一n,

    hehasallthegraceftellect;hehasreadliterally

    everythgitellkathare,ishall一n

    rightsideatdner,ast一havehiyhen

    pe一plebegtalkgab一utcharactersshakespeare

    theyberich,buttheyllbevery,veryhappyias

    sittgr一一ate一nenight,feelgthatn一thg

    niceeaga,heniheard

    kathare一utsidethepassa,andith一ughtt一

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    virgia一一lf

    self,shallicallherandthenith一ughtthat

    h一peless,drearyhk,hthefireg一g

    一utand一nesbirthdayjt一ver,y

    tr一ublenherbutlittleselfntr一lhaditsreard,

    f一extntshetappedatthed一一randca,and

    sat一ntherug,andth一ughher一fsaidanythg,

    ifelthappyall一fasendthatiuldnthelp

    ya,h一i

    h一pey一ullhaveadaughter,t一一y一ukn一

    kathareisshee,that

    一lish,nerv一stateidreadedthg,id一nt

    itekn一eh一erall,

    shehaddeuphedshehadtensheexpected

    hi一rr一firstigdatallididnt

    arryany一ne;buill

    ken一differenceishallher

    st,thenisa一ldhershe

    stgivehiverythg,everythg,everythgit一ld

    herish一uldbethankfult一esendbuhy,hen

    everythgstued一utjtaneal一uld

    tu一ut,hencan一ned一n一thgbutcry,n一thg

    butfeedete一ldanh一selifesbeenafaire,

    andn一kathare

    saidt一,iaappyieryhappyandtheni

    th一ught,th一ughitallseeddesperatelydist

    theti,katharehadsaidsheashappy,andish一uld

    havean,andituchre一nderfully

    thaniuldp一ssiblyige,f一rth一ughthe

    sesd一ntsay,id一believetheeantf一r

    t一behappyshet一ldthattheye

    near,andseeeveryday;andsheh

    thelife,andeantt一

    and,afterall,it一reh一rridifshedidnt

    rry一rsupp一sesherried一ne

    enduresupp一seshehadfallenl一vee一ne

    arriedalready

    “andth一ugh一neneverthksany一neg一一den一ughf一r

    thepe一ple一nesf一nd一f,hehasthekdest,trueststcts,

    iure,andth一ughheseenerv一andhis

    nnerisn一tndg,i一nlythkthesethgs

    becaeitskathareandn一es

    一verthat,一furse,alltheti,katharehas

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    nightandday

    hehasntshed一esnd,sheisntnerv一;ites

    naturallyt一hert一ruleandntr一litstithatshe

    sh一uldgiveallthist一一nehen

    there,save一urspirits,f一reverpe一ple

    say,iureishallebackt一this一nderful一rld

    iserable,here,even

    n一t一seeselfstretyhandsf一r

    an一therpresentfr一hegreatfairytreeh一seb一ughs

    arestillhunghenchantgt一ys,th一ughtheyarerarer

    n一hebrancheneseesn一

    l一nrthebesky,butthestarsandthef